It’s times like this where I want to just hold onto you and thank you. so many words to say but I know they just sound all jumbled up to you anyway. The day I found out you were ill was the same time I knew I lost my best friend in you. Every time I go to pick up the phone to get ready to unleash to you, I have to remember that it’s not you I’m speaking to, but rather what Alzheimer’s has become of you. So many Blessings and Opportunities have happened for me, and the one person I would share it with can now not understand me. I sometimes dream and go back to when I was in your womb where you would read and sing sweet lullabies to me. Your softness ran through your belly when you talked to me and it was the safest place called home to me. I knew I was loved tremendously because as I got of age it reaped all over the Woman I called Mommy who is also the woman I strive to be. Strong, fiery, independent Puerto Rican Woman you had set the stage for me and always keeping positive even on the stormiest days you see. Working three jobs and making sure I had the best, and always keeping our Home a Safe place to rest. As I had a child of my own, I realized that the woman I had become was a complete match of our DNA after all. It’s hard to swallow that I’m losing you and every memory we have made has disappeared for you. I can’t imagine how this makes you feel, but I know if must be hard looking at me while trying to figure out who I am for real. I don’t let that define the mother you are too me and I will always be your little girl you call Puti. I know now it’s not the memories we can’t get back but all the new ones GOD is allowing us to make back. So on this day I honor you, and tell you I love you like I do when I talk to you. I will always keep placing my head in your lap when I see you because that’s the memory I want to hold on to. I want you to always know I will be your baby and look forward to becoming as great as you. You will always be that one Woman who holds the torch for me, who always runs on the side of me yelling out my name encouraging me. I love you dearly and I just want you to know I hope when you lie and dream you can be proud of knowing your hard work paid off. Know that I am always carrying you with me and each day i still strive to be a Great Woman who I call Mommy.
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